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How can I break this cycle without ending the relationship? A split, as viewed by the partner.

2017.07.09 14:45 lonely08 How can I break this cycle without ending the relationship? A split, as viewed by the partner.

Day 1
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Day 4
Day 5
A voicemail from an unfamiliar... Wait that's my girlfriend. She sounds like a completely different person... I've heard that voice before when she talks to other people not knowing I'm around, and wondered about it... The message addresses me threateningly, as though I'm a creepy stalker from her distant past. I cannot return the call. My number is blocked. I am blocked on skype/twitteetc as well. She seems abnormally extroverted on social media and added 25 people last night.
Day 6
Day 7
Day 8
I'm lonely. I spend all day wondering if this is the big one, the real deal, not just a split. She sends me a text. She says it was meant for some other guy then ignores my responses. Obviously fake and lying, but why would anyone kick you when you're already down?
Days 9-60
No trace. I bottom out. Can't break the old habit of checking for her texts every minute. Try to get drunk. Try to make an online dating account and just get even more depressed.
Day 60-90
I'm making small steps towards recovery. I went to the gym. It was sunny outside. Briefly distracted from the heartbreak/confusion/grief/mourning.
Day 91
(1 hour later)
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